Monday, November 27, 2017

🍴 Binge Eating - Can I Be Helped?

"Just put down the food." This sentence can be found in the comment section of any story where someone is fat. Whether they are talking about losing weight, gaining weight, or even not talking about weight at all.

If only it were that easy.

A Life Binging

I have lived with binge behavior all my life. Only the face has changed.

People can binge on anything - alcohol, drugs, sex, gambling, food, shopping, and video games are the most common things. In today's society, people even "binge watch" TV shows. Unless your binge-watching of Glitch interferes with your ability to be healthy, we won't include that.

At one time, I binged on cigarettes and alcohol - at times, drugs. Around this time I also binged on shopping. As I was trying to quit those things, I started binging on gambling. When social media came out, I binged on MySpace. Eventually, I kicked that habit, too. Now, I binge on food.

Chemical Compulsion

It is easy to be able to blame things on a physical addiction. Drugs and alcohol can make you chemically dependent on the substance, but what if you can't blame a chemical? What if you just have compulsive tendencies?

Actually, you can blame that on a chemical dependency as well.

When you participate in something you find pleasing, your brain releases dopamine, serotonin, endorphins and other chemicals so that you feel good - happy, satisfied, well. This is great for people that suffer from depression and anxiety.

The problem is that eventually, you don't feel good anymore. That is where I am now.

Choosing Pain over Life

I found out that I have several food allergies - milk, wheat, corn, eggs, tomatoes, and peanuts. That encompasses every food that I like to binge on. I have health problems like fibromyalgia and IBS that are much improved if I steer clear on my food allergies.

At first, it was easy. I just told myself that it was like poison to me. I felt better, so I did good for awhile.

Slowly, the offending foods crept back into my life. I told myself that it was just for today. I told myself that it was just for a special occasion. Now, I can't lie to myself anymore.

I would rather be in pain then follow my diet.

To Control, Admit Defeat

My eating is out of control, much like the other bad habits before that.

Where do I go from here?

Well, I joined Overeaters Anonymous online. I hope that in The Steps, I can find healing - permanent healing - from all my compulsions, instead of just trading one for the other.

The problem with food is that I feel like it isn't as harmful as my previous compulsions, but it is, and I have to learn to see that.

Step One - I admit that I am powerless over food, and my life has become unmanageable.

Step One - Admit you are powerless over food, and your life has become unmanageable. Use the comments!!

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